Why my blog has been lowkey

Hey guys, what's up? So, this is me, writing my unasked and unwanted opinion at 12:06 AM on Friday, the 17th, '25. I just thought I’d clear the air and write to connect with you all—because why not?

For those of you who enjoyed reading my Never Lie chapters, chapter by chapter, you might be annoyed that I haven’t posted anything in a while. Well, I’m here to talk about that and let you in on what’s been going on.

The thing is, to write, you need a clear headspace, time, and no pressure. Of course, you can write without these things, but if you want to create something amazing, something that truly hits, these factors matter. I’ve scrapped so many of my drafts just because they didn’t feel right, you know? If I hate something I’ve written, I’m pretty sure you all wouldn’t like it either. I want to share pieces that are interesting, thought-provoking, and out of the ordinary—not just random writing but work that’s carefully crafted and cared for.

That being said, with no time on my hands—including external commitments outside of school and everything else going on—it’s been really hard to find the time or the right state of mind to write. During the winter break, my routine kind of got… tilted? I don’t know, but it wasn’t stable. When school started, I got into this cycle where I’d come home, sleep, wake up at 1 or 2 AM, and—with a clear head and no distractions—focus on my blog and writing for 4 to 5 hours straight. Then I’d go to school and repeat the cycle.

Well, my routine eventually got “fixed” (yay), but that left me with less time for writing and editing. To promote my blog, I need to edit videos for Instagram or reels (as you may call them). Honestly, getting someone else to edit for me feels overwhelming. Capturing the emotions I want in my work is something only I can do. So, while I’m writing, I’m constantly stressing about finding time to edit, which makes me rush my work. That, in turn, leads to me trashing everything I’ve written because I hate it.

I’ll be honest—I would’ve quit by now if it weren’t for a few things: my friends, the support I’ve received, and knowing how much people enjoy my work. It means so much to me that the pieces I pour my heart into actually resonate with others.

Poems, though, are different. They just come to me. Not to hype myself up, but I can write poems that people devour in no time. No exaggeration. I write them when I feel done, annoyed, or lost. The emotions pour out like thunder, and it helps me figure myself out. Basically, I just LOVE to write them.

People love my poems (prolly cz I like to write them), and honestly, it’s been a lifesaver. Even though I haven’t been able to share as much of my main work, knowing people enjoy my poetry feels amazing.

I could talk and write forever—it just comes naturally to me. Probably a side effect of being an oversharer. Mhm.

Well, that’s a story for another day. 😉

-Sheeza

.S.: I forgot what I originally wanted to say here, so… maybe it wasn’t important? Or maybe it was life-changing. We’ll never know. And yes, I'm trying to take out time and give my best efforts I can. That's it for the rant!

And yes, it's amazinggg to be able to rant about your thoughts you get while writing and just throw them out on the blog to possibly clear your head. While writing. Benefits of blogging that'd be.